This is why i push so hard!

I have came to realize that someone with special needs, their not really that different from us. Special needs people have hearts too. I recently met a little girl the other day, that reminded me of a family friend with downsyndrome. She was such an inspritation. I have never seen such a happy little girl, in my whole life. Children with doowns, they really arent different. They might be a little slower, but arent we all, they have made me want to educate and study this disability. They can put a smile on anyones face :)
Sydney, i love you. You will always be the sunshine in my heart!

I’ve seen the bright side of things, i’ve been in love and im still inlove. I’ve seen things go down the drain, and for all the right reason. I’ve kept mine close to my heart, it doesnt keep me from doing things with my life. I keep the lessons i’ve learned in the back of my mind.

This is sad.

Its a saturday night, my boyfriends working, Blake is working. So basically stuck at home for a million years, its starting to get to me.

Quest #1- Find new friends.

Quest #2- Hang out with new friends.

Quest #3- Find time to rub in old friends face that I’m not afraid to find new friends.

Yepp sounds like a plan! FUCK ALL OF YOU!

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

My best friend Blake, I can honestly say she is the only one I’ve been closest to the longest.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
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Day 04 - A picture of your favorite night

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 06 - A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you’re afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Ya know,

I love him so much, you never really know what you’ve lost until you get it back. We’ve been at this for 4 years, and still haven’t given up. I dont really know if my life would be complete without knowing that i can finally have you for the rest of my life

Jesus christ, fuck! When you talk, all I hear is bullshit just flyin outta your mouth!

Do everyone a fucking favor a just die. Cause I dont need you in my fucking head, 24/7

Thank fucking god I get to get out of fucking Roanoke tomorrow.

Day 1- A picture of yourself and 10 facts.

1. I try to hard to keep things going that shouldn’t be going.

2. The only person I really trust is myself.

3. I lived in one place all my life.

4. I don’t get the fact of having 10 facts about myself.

5. My boyfriend is the most amazing person I have.

6. My niece and nephew are what keeps me going.

7. I absolutely hate my school.

8. I will be a hairstylist no matter what it takes.

9. My aunt is basically my mother.

10. People really try to hard.

Goddamnit.

Ya know, the minute I get grounded is the minute everyone just completely goes away. I don’t have best friends anymore, I have friends that only come around when I actually wanna hang out, and half the time, they don’t act like they wanna hang out. I feel like the only person I have now is my boyfriend and I’m very greatful for that, but I need my 2 best friends that I thought would come to me for everything. But I guess not. I only have them when I need them. I honestly just want my sister back in Roanoke, where I need her the most. I don’t even have my so called sister across the street anymore because her ADD boyfriend is too scared to let her out of his site. I just want some change, and right now everything is changing in ways that it shouldn’t change. I guess I’ll be doing spring break by myself at my sisters. But I guess thats also a good thing because my brother won’t be there and me and her can actually talk about things that need to be talked about while he’s not around.

Well it felt good to vent a little.